A to Z Challenge – W
W is for wistful. 1. Characterized by melancholy; longing; yearning. Or 2. pensive, especially in a melancholy way. (Thank you Dictionary.Com!)
I have been very wistful lately, pensive in a melancholy way. I wistfully remember Pop’s first day of kindergarten as I prepare for him to graduate. I wistfully remember reading Pop and Tart Harry Potter and going for midnight releases of the new books and movies…I wistfully contemplate Frosting getting older and starting school next year.
Melancholy may be a little too strong of a word, but sometimes there is a definite sadness as I stand back and see all the time that has passed by. All the todays that have come and gone while I am trying to keep my head above water. I think about all the things that I have experienced and wonder about all the little things I may have missed out on while dog paddling. I am wistful.
As we are going through pictures and videos of Pop, applying for financial aid, thinking about a car to get him to and from college, preparing to buy bedding for a dorm room out of state – I am wistful…I am longing. I am longing for a time when he was small (not really ever small…but, you get my drift!) and his bright little eyes would look out at me from his crib at 2 in the morning. I am longing for the little red faced fits he threw in his cowboy boots. I am wistful for the cuddling of my little boy that is now in all truth a man.
All the while I am wistful I am also go incredible grateful for the wonderful memories and wishful for all the things that are to come for my Pop, Tart and Frosting.
What are you wistful for? What are you longing for in a melancholy way? I am wistful for the innocence of childhood to be sure! Kids today are growing up too fast in a world that has no consideration for the need to pace their growth. Kiddos are exposed to violence, sex and drugs at a younger and younger age…youtube, google, Facebook, iPods…you name it there is media out there to present it no matter how careful you are as a parent. I wistfully wish that I didn’t have to worry where my kiddos are 24/7, but realistically I know that this is now the world we live in.
Live, Laugh, Love~
Vanilla Mama
Our job as parents is to prepare our children to leave and become independent but sometimes it's hard to let go. They come back, though, with extras:-)
ReplyDeleteVery true! Looking forward to the extras - but not until I am 45!!
ReplyDeleteOur last two sons just flew the coop only 5 months ago. Still not use to the quiet. Great for my writing during the day. The evening's my husband and I really notice it. Teenagers for over 20 years I got use to the nightly drama or need to talk late into the night. I miss it. Yes, I'm wistful.
ReplyDeleteI am wistful for the days when Vanilla Mama was my little girl, getting up in the morning rubbing her little eyes and saying,"It is light outside, it is time to get up." Wistful for the later years when she told me about the dream she had the night before. I have to say that she has grown up to be a "W"onderful "W"oman.
ReplyDeleteVanilla Mama's mother.
Oh, this is so - - ooo sweet, your Mom has left a comment I do not blame your Mom for being wistful for you. You must have been a cute little girl.
ReplyDeleteMy daughter just said that sometimes cuter than little kids are their parents.
I sometimes miss my kid;s childhood so badly that I just sit with their picture in my lap and fall asleep on the livingroom sofa. My husband simply shakes his head
sweet post! since my eldest is only 12yo and my youngest 2yo, i honestly am longing for those days when i can just pick my bags and go wherever and whenever i like. lol. i know i'll get there again, eventually. :)
ReplyDeleteMy Mom is certainly a huge inspiration! I put her through quite a bit and she has stood by me all these years!
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