Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Beautiful, Scary Thing!

Beautiful, Scary Thing -
Sorry, couldn't resist Scrabble like tiles!
John 3:35 - Jesus said to them, "I am the bread of life; whoever comes to me will never hunger, and whoever believes in me will never thirst.”
For me today, this is a hard one. Although I am one of the first people who will say it happens in God’s time, God will provide, if God brings you to it, He will bring you through it….I am also working really hard to convince myself. If I were to list off all the things that have gone wrong lately, or are not going right, or just simply not going how “I” want them to go, I would just sound like I am whining – and honestly I don’t have enough cheese to go with all the whine!
Realistically I could spend hours going on about everything…realistically I probably have, and I probably will again. It is a waste of my energy, a waste of the precious resources that God has entrusted in me.
Trusting in those words, trusting that God always has my back, trusting that my silver needs a little purifying – is hard. Really, Really Hard! I don’t feel like I am able to do enough, trust enough. Jesus said to me, “I am the bread of life; whoever comes to me will never hunger, and whoever believes in me will never thirst.” Jesus said that to me – today. But, I have to believe in Him. I have to trust in Him – I have to let go. Such a beautiful, scary thing...to let go, to trust!
In short, I have to trust in the resources that God has entrusted in me. He trusted me enough to give them to me…and he gave them to you to.
I have to say that again, because I had never thought about that before – I have to TRUST in the resources that God has ENTRUSTED in me!
The big question here though is what am I hungry for? What I am thirsty for? Are they really things that God wants for me in my life? Are they really things that God has entrusted resources in me to do? I realize that it is my choice; free will is a beautiful, scary thing.
But, what would it feel like to spend eternity thirsty, spend eternity hungry? Spending all the energy and resources that I have trying to satisfy them? Whining won’t help – not even with the yummiest cheese!
I can choose to trust God, I can choose to not…I have been entrusted that choice. I can choose to be hungry, I can choose to be thirsty….or I can choose to trust in God to fill those needs.
A Beautiful, scary thing.
Live, Laugh, Love ~
Vanilla Mama

5 comments:

  1. Thanks for coming over to my blog and saying hello!

    Duncan In Kuantan

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  2. Trust is so hard. It's what makes every relationship difficult right?! Thanks for stopping by pBd so often. I truly enjoy your comments!

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  3. I guess I have been lucky in the sense that no one has given me a reason not to trust them. My husband thinks that I am nieve, but I really look around and see that people are mostly good.
    I shall take care of God's resources the best way I can. I just hope that I am fit eoungh.

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  4. Great post and very spiritual. I envy a lot of people like yourself who believe in God. Faith was simply not a thing I was ever chosen to receive. I'm not sad about that at all but it's pretty cool to see how it motivates others.

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