My ways have been lacking.
There really is no need to test them and I hate to even bring it to the light
that my ways are lacking.
Let me clarify – I have
not lost faith. My God is an awesome God, He holds me up in His warm embrace of
love. He is my strength, my breath, and my hope. I pray everyday, I turn my thoughts
to Him and His will. His Son strengthens me and the Holy Spirit fortifies me.
Okay, I am really not
trying to sound preachy or holier than thou…cause trust me, I am not. I fall
everyday. I struggle everyday. Every. Day.
Doesn’t everyone? Every.
Day? I think if you answer no, you are kidding yourself.
You may not even recognize
your struggles, or if you do – you will not acknowledge them. Perhaps a certain
river comes to mind. (De-Nile…Denial, get it? Haha – really, really old joke!)
Let us examine our ways and test them, and let
us return to the LORD.
What kind of test can I
expect?
I know, I know where I am
falling short. And even in the admission, I am sure that there are more ways
that I am falling short of living the life that our Father has envisioned for
me. Yes, I believe that He has a life planned for me. Through everything that I
have been through, all the good, bad and ugly I have experienced…I know He has
a plan. The God of heaven and earth that has numbered every hair on my head –
He has a plan!
Do I expect to know it in
this mortal body? Can I fully appreciate it with my imperfect heart? Are there
parts of my life that I cannot even begin to imagine the WHYs of? YES!
And, I suppose that is
part of my test.
Let us examine our ways and test them, and let
us return to the LORD.
I need to return to the
Lord. I know it with my mind, I know it with my heart, I know it in my soul. I
feel him calling to me.
How can I say that? How do
I know? When I decided it was time to do a post, I went to my Happiness Mug
(don’t know what that is, click here and see!) and pull out a Fortune. I pulled
out, “You will make through the tough times, keep your chin up.” I just couldn’t.
Sometimes a Fortune Cookie
can be incredibly insightful. But, tonight I couldn’t do it. I felt pulled to
just type, “Bible Verse of the Day” into my browser bar…and Google brought me
here.
Feels a little like being “talked
to.” I just got called out. He wants me to return to Him.
Return to worship, return
to praise, return to His house. He wants me to keep my chin up, to remember He
has the Master Plan.
It is really hard some
days to keep that simple thing in mind. I will pray for you – please pray for
me!
~Live, Laugh, Love, Vanilla Mama
